Damn That Lie

Suddenly it struck me.. I've been lying to everyone I've ever met, ever knew.. Even my closes friends & family.. It's not a bad lie in some ways, but the hard part is now to tell, without loosing any more friends.. Want to gain more "new" friends.. Not that the one's I've got are bad, it's just that many of them are hard to speak with since they live in the other side of the world, time difference makes communication way to late sometimes wich makes my already messed up life more messed up.. :-(
Not your fault, It's just as mentioned, I don't got any other to speak with.. And I enjoy talking with you, the time difference aren't any of us fault. So don't worry about that please? Here's a pic for you :-P


Before I had many people to talk to all around the world, now there's just a few of them left due to the change from ICQ to MSN (dang Microsoft).. To many are lazy and don't install ICQ when they have reinstalled or bought new computer.. Lost many good internet friends that way, will always be missed - R.I.P.. Some are still there, and I want to keep them, I love those buggers even if I've never met most of them, and just talk by text. It's still almost the only communication that I have with other humans these days.. Yes my life is miserable at the moment. But you guys and girls makes it all worthwhile, never forget that. *hugs*

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This is usually where I post a song, but this time it can't be found on youtube, or any other site I've searched.. Therefore I will just give you the lyrics, listening to the song will be left to you, if you can find it.

Absurd Minds - Septic
Like a flower in the desert
The only beauty within miles
She attracts all men's attention
A perfect sweety spending smiles

And I have lost myself in her
What's left of me ain't worth to mention
All my life is missin' in action
I loved myself through her affection

There's nothing else to share
I was awake but not aware
Strategic leader of my senses
This mindwar builds the highest fences

She's my eyeball turning blind
She's a care-actress on the love-set
She's the drug that rapes my mind
She is the poison I can't hate

Septic honey on my bread
Septic thoughts spin through my head
Septic baby in my bed
Septic, bad, worse, dead
Vom Gift deiner Lenden übersäht
I only wanted love instead

I see you, I hear you, but I don't feel you nomore
I am willing to behave
Could you like me without fear
I'm prepared to be your slave
Bleibst du für immer bei mir ?

A sudden end to my desire
I simply reflect your light & fire
Still I don't shine if you don't shine
Lies burn my love - ich bin so klein

We're so close in distance
And yet so far in thought
Sin in itself does not make sense
Wo auch immer Liebe droht
She's my eyeball turning blind
She's a care-actress on the love-set
She's the drug that rapes my mind
She is the poison I can't hate

Septic honey on my bread
Septic thoughts spin through my head
Septic baby in my bed
Septic, bad, worse, dead
Vom Gift deiner Lenden übersäht
I only wanted love instead


I see you, I hear you, but I don't feel you nomore

I don't want to be nailed
To anyone's cross
If I was a winner, I wouldn't have failed
If I wasn't lovemad, I could take the loss

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Is there anything else? Well, this is me, saying good night, good fight.. Life's always a struggle.. Over & out. //Jezz