Lost Within Myself (Again)

(Katharine Isabelle)

Well.... This afternoon didn't start as predicted... Why does life have to tease me? Isn't it enough that my world is in ruins and has been for over a year now? Cant something change to the positive for me just once? Or do I have to suffer like always, only feel a shimmer of hope only to get struck down again, plummeting downwards in this endless hole.
They say, behave or you will go to hell, be good and come to heaven.... How can "they" be so sure that this world we live in now, isn't the very hell "they" spoke of? Just an endless line full of disappointments..

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My Dark Angel

I Know what I want.
I Know what I need.
But this world wont let me be.
Only lets me bleed.
Only lets me pleed.
Come save me please?!

Bah! Never again, never this pain. Everything remains the same. What keeps me sane?
You perhaps? Or is it me? Or the thing inside of me? What will it be?
Only time will get to see.
Empty promises, empty hugs.
Feels like I cant ever hug you enough.
Cause there's no one there, ever to feel me here.
Only thing left is my lost soul empty to wander someplace over there.

Empty heart, empty faces.
Dying mind that keeps on fading.
All these tears I hide.
All these pain that I subside.
I just can't stand all this agony this world provide.
So I hide inside.

Failed, loved, and loured - my story.

How can I succeed in this mess?
How can I end to bleed regress.
If there's a way, it will wake my interest.
If there's another way, out of this pest.

(Sashi)

Can you let me make one wish? Let this dark angel arrive, and carry me away from this mess.
Let here be notling left, nothing for anyone else to digest.

My dark angel.
Wish I could give you all my love.
Wish I could offer you my life.
Wish I could be your's forever.
Wish I could stay in your arms.
Wish I could carry you with me in my heart.
Wish I could be your world.
Wish I could touch your beautiful soul.
Wish I could be as beautiful as you.
Wish I could surrender my life, give it all to you.
My dark angel.

//Jezz 20080605

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Type O Negative - My Girlfriend's Girlfriend


All for now, best regards from Ms Jezz to you all..