Mourning

Tired of it all, nothings right nothings wrong.
Sedated, deprecated.
Nothing less then hated.
Nothing more then life have created.

Fading heart, dying art.
Longing just to hear you talk.
Hear you breathing in the dark.
Carry your mark.

Whenever I'm alone, you're still on your throne.
Making me suffer, dying alone.
Deprives me of my sleep.
Makes my soul weep.

Forever scared, forever with this scars in my soul.
They start to bleed when I realize I'm all alone.
They grow wider, they grow deeper.
No more rest, no more sleep now.

Afraid I'll drown in emotional blood.
If I close my eyes, it flows like a flood.
Just as the water falls.
Just as my inner self calls.

I'm dying alone, within these walls.
No one cares, no one calls.
Inside this skin, its all so dark.
It's all so wrong.

-Jezz 2008-08-24

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Interpret it as you like, it's rely not that bad. Promise. And yes some still call, you few know who you are. It's not a question of "not calling" its a question of longing for "the right call". So no hard feelings huh?
Well, so many days, so many weeks, so many months have passed.. Yet it feels like everything just remains the same. I want out of this vacuum. Can't hope, nor trust that someone else will come and help me with that, I know... Yet still I'm longing for that someone.. Strange isn't it?

This is an old classic that have kept me alive longer then I'm willing to admit.. Enjoy.

Scorpions - When The Smoke Is Going Down


Lyrics:
Music: Rudolf Schenker
Lyrics: Klaus Meine

Just when you make your way back home.
I find some time to be alone.
I go to see the place once more.
Just like a thousand nights before.
I climb the stage again this night.
cause the place seems still alive.
When the smoke is going down.

This is the place where I belong.
I really love to turn you on.
Ive got your sound still in my ear.
While your traces disappear.
I climb the stage again this night.
cause the place seems still alive.
When the smoke is going down.

I climb the stage again this night.
cause the place seems still alive.
When the smoke is going down.
When the smoke is going down.
When the smoke is going down.

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Thats all for this time... Over & out.. //Jezz