"Like a wounded crow with wooded stapeled wings. Crippeled but still soaring.Trying to stay wingborn.
I refuse to be one of them.
Staked, trapped, and bleeding.
Yeah, it's true, that woun't happen.
Right, for sure?"
-Jezz 2007-09-05
Mostly i feel just empty, i dont know what to do. Just stay awake doing nothing. Cant fall asleep, but still to tired to do anything creative. Gazing into nowhere. Whats there to see?
How come i cant sleep when i realy need to? Thoughts grind my mind, blurring my thoughts. Making me forget what i was doing, or supposed to do. Mocking me.. I feel ded tired, go to bed. But well there, im wide awake. Someone, something, is messing with me.. Why o why is everything the same, it feels like the days just repeats themselves. Over and over i do the same things.
It's hard enough trying to get my thoughts in line to write my blog. Can start a sentence, only to re-write it moments later since the words just wrote are nothing, empty, silent. Can only vision myself crying, cant do that anymore. Dont let myself. Eaven if it might make things feel better.
Anathema - Empty
" Empty vessel under the sun wipe the dust
From my face another morning black Sunday
Coming down again empty vessel empty veins
Empty bottle wish for rain that pain again
Wash the blood off my face the pulse from
My brain and I feel that pain again
I'm looking over my shoulder 'cos millions
Will whisper I'm killing myself again maybe
I'm dying faster but nothing ever last I
Remember a night from my past when I was
Stabbed in the back and its all coming
Back and I feel that pain again
I abhor you I condemn you 'cos this pain
Will never end you got away without a
Scratch and now you're walking on a lucky
Path I have to laugh but you'd better watch your back
There's pathetic opposition they're the
Cause of my condition ill be coming back
For them I've a solution for this sad
Situation nothing left but to kill myself
Again because I'm so empty"
