This is a guest entry written by my friend Älvöga.
To survive
"To survive is to face the dark thoughts every day" This is my mantra when darkness finds its way under my skin.
Those days when there is no light to be seen
Those days when my mind back stabs every happy and joyful thought
Those days when I fall into the dark and chaotic empty pit oh loneliness
To survive those days you need to be strong not to give in to pain and try to face the terror of the world. When you are under the spell of chaos nothing else matters: Your boy/girl friend could go to hell, your parents kills you with every comment they make, you don't even care if you live or die those days
All you want is that chaos will loose its grip on your soul so you can be free- so you can move on.
I'm still here fighting not to give in to pain and chaos
I'm still here facing an empty pit of loneliness every day I wake up
I'm still here not giving in to the terror of destruction and that is much thanks to my friends
My friend are those who reminds me that life is worth to live. They give me strength to carry on, to fight the the terror of darkness lonliness and chaos. I'm happy that I have friends like Jezz, Phoenix and J they do check in on me from time to time and they help me to aise my spirits, to survive
//Älvöga
