Lost Sanity

Lost Sanity
Her eyes so clear, her voice so near.
Whispering in my ear.
Black darling, you will be my king.
Black wedding, kiss me & seal with the ring.

Flesh torn from bone, her distant moan.
Pale face in the mirror, staring at me.
An empty face without trust.
False darling, black halo around her neck.
False darling, sticking daggers in my back.

You wished me well, now you wish me hell.
I lost my sanity, I lost my dreams.
You wished me well, now you wish me hell.

Red bright eyes, they sine in the night.
Condemned to this life.
Chains of pain, chains of past.
Chains of claim, woun't keep me sane.

A distant sound, a infected wound.
Distant face with a greedy grin - upon her face!
Shady mistress, no lady in distress.
Shady mistress, all that's left is regrets.

You wished me well, how you wish me hell.
I lost my sanity, I lost my dreams.
You wished me well, now you wish me hell.

You wished me well..
Wished me well..
Now you wish me hell..
Wish me hell..


//Jezz 20080518

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Carfax Abbey - Cry Little Sister (Cover)


All for now.. Over & out.... //Jezz

Shape Me!

Shape Me
Shadows of a broken past.
Empty chards of colored glass.
Cutting my cold hard veins.
Flowing tears that forever stains.
Searing heartache that tidy remains.

I know what will remain with us.
The narly clay that shapes my bust.
Shape me!
Shape me!
A shallow figure in the mirror.
That's not me.

Witches put their spell on me.
Their words, echo within.
Never to walk this earth again.
Without the thorns in my brain.
Without nothing to keep me sane.

I know what will remain with us.
The narly clay that shapes my bust.
Shape me!
Shape me!
A shallow figure in the mirror.
That's not me.

-Jezz 2008-05-08
Over & out// Jezz.

Lost?

There's something in the air.. I Got this strange feeling again.. Don't know where it comes from.. If I only knew, things would be a lot less difficult.

Hate the feeling in my spine, tells me somethings going on, something good, but I will loose that feeling & that opportunity forever. Escape from me, like it always does.. Can't let that happen again, since I've lost it to many times already.. :-(

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Best movie evar: Josie & The Pussycats, released in 2001
Clip from the movie seen here:
Josie & The Pussycats - Three Small Words

Of Joy & Sorrow

Of joy & sorrow my dear.
You sit down there, shed your tears.
Drown the world in a flood.
Poison is within your blood.
Addicted to your love.
There's so many things,
that has to be told.

To whoever that might care.
Come to me if you dare.
Nights alone I stare.
This life isn't fare.
Don't know how much more of this i can bare.


Of joy & sorrow my dear.
You don't even know I'm here.
Someday you might read,
these words and shed a single tear.
I just want to hold you near.
Be there for you, with you, love you.
My dear....

Of joy & sorrow...
Of pain & rejoice...
Of life & death...
Until I get to see you again.
Don't know what will remain....

-Jezz 20080504

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Angelzoom - Fairyland

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Explanation? Do you rely need one? Well, perhaps not all need that explanation, but I know there's at least a couple of ppl out there that will need to know why..

Simple rely.. There is a person in my general surroundings during the days, that I want to get to know more, alto our "life perception" differs, we might be a match.. Don't know that yet, therefor I have to get to get closer to this person. Have no idea of how that can be done.. Therefore I'm a mix of confusion at the moment.. Should I be bold and go for it? Or should I be patient? Since I'm an expert of being pessimistic, the only feeling that I get is: "It will not happen to me anyways".........
Why you might ask?
Well, it's quite simple rely.. But however.. I can't revel it, the ones who need to know, well... They know it...
This says some of it all.....

Lene Marlin - Unforgivable Sinner


I'm in what feels & seems to be an eternal fall downwards. My only hope is to finally stop this bad spiral so that I can start climbing upwards again, hopefully never to fall again.

Rotersand - One Level Down


Lyrics

Awoke and found myself
Lying on a wooden floor
Thought this had come to an end
I won't be shattered anymore
But the floor slipped to the walls
And had me crashing down again


One level down, another round,
One battle lost, when will I reach the final ground?
One level down, what have I found?
Time and again I'm lying shattered on the ground


Where did I fail, did I go wrong?
There is no crime I could confess
I just keep tossing floor to floor -
This must be purgatory's taste
And as I fall I'm crying out "I do surrender"
I know there is no end, no soil will ever hold me safe