Don't call me bad

I'm so much worse.
Is there rly any way to keep myself from going insane?
I'm still waiting for my dreams
They seem never to get real.
No matter how much I hope.
The world always find some way to pin me down.
Flat to the ground.

I know I'm bad.
However I'm not bad in the way you think.

How much more of this can I take?
Time will tell, as usual..
It's my worst enemy.

Is it to much to ask?
To have someone near,
Someone to call dear?
Apparently it's so.
Since time pass by.
And still everything remains the same.
I just want to have someone to hold.
Someone to get lost within those beautiful eyes.
Never get tired to touch her silk like skin.
Hear that voice from within.
Tell you "shes the one, to keep. Forever, and ever".

Only for the privileged ones.
Prove otherwise, I dare you!?

Lost my wings

I lost my wings.
Forgot how to fly.
Ran away.
Away from it all.

Cowered with shame.
Nothing remains the same.
Every hurtful feeling.
Crowding in my brain.
Could I feel happy?
Nah, never again.


Drowning in the river of tears.
Cannot look back.
Everythings black.
Wandering the afterlife.
Looking for a way to get back.
Untill I found her track.

Searched through the snow.
Walking in terrible cold.
Loosing all hope.
Where to go?
She's nowhere to be find.
All this snow is making me blind.

I want everything I could need.
Long hair as there can be.
Suculent hips, longing lips.
Just like hers.
Just like hers.



My longing wishes.
Don't make any difference.
A grasp of her breath.
The touch of her hands.
When all I want
Is for us to be togeather.
Togeather forever.

//Jezz 2009-02-24

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This is rly confusing.. Sheesh I'm a mess.. Haha, well thats realy no surprise. An diffuse mind can only spread confusion. Can't remember when it was I had a grip of reality last time.. Seems like never. Looking forward, and I see a small glimmer of hope to get my act togeather.. How it will turn out? Well I will try to keep you posted. The few who read this.

Over & out //Jezz

Stained

Heres looking at you beautiful.
With a tear in my eye, a nife in my heart.
Soul acing for our eyes to meet.
A craving from within.
Hear you breate in.

A simple thought a heavy feeling.
With a drop of blood falling down.
Stained my shirt, stained my life.
Only to see her gentle smile.
I'd walk a mile.

Moist hungry lips.
Open arms open mind.
The sweetest girl anyone can find.
Her beauty strikes me blind.

//Jezz 2009-02-23

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Paradise Lost - Ereased




That's all for now.. Over & out //Jezz

Her

It's her eyes.
It's her face.

There's no lie.
There's no disgrace.

I want to love this girl.

In this world,
I will be waiting for her.

It's her grace
It's her ways

As she plays
As she tease

Is there any way?
Is there any place?

I don't know where to go
I don't know how to act.

When she glows.
When she shines.

I do long for her.

She hold the key to my chains.
She hold the pain I can relate.

Hand in hand for a new beginning
Hand in hand for my heart belongs to you


//Jezz 2009-02-22

Tears

Her tears are frozen in my mind.
A frosty thought that I try to find.

Her eyes still watch me in my head
Without them I'd feel dead.

The trouth that will be told.
Has to wait, perhaps it's to bold?

Somehow I feel her presence.
It's hard to form a sentence.

A simple song triggers the river of tears.
Simple feelings that's about to drown.

Perhaps they are lost forever?
Just let the tears find out.

While I'm locked within in siclence.
There's no way I could cry less.

I cannot freeze my sorrow.
I'll always be drowning in tears.

How can I trade you my heart
for your innocent love?

-Jezz 2009-02-21

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"Bröllopsresa: första försöket att fly från äktenskapets verklighet."
"Honeymoon: the first try to escape the reality of marriage" - August Strindberg
Perhaps, tho it kinda sounds like a statement from someone who haven't felt true love.


Napoleon Bonaparte wore a read shirt in battle so that his troops wouldn't see if he got wounded, since that might lower their morale.
Hitler wore brown pants........

Nuff siad //Jezz

Faces

Empty places empty rooms.
Another face gone without a trace.
Her shadow linger in the room.

Like a musk from flowers.
I hear her breathe in my ear.

Gentle lips fiddle with my ear.
A silent moan, a muffeled scream.
Har face went past my window.

-Jezz 2009-02-20

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Yeah, ya know.. That's the trouth!

Over & out //Jezz

It Continues

Haha, everything isn't red in plain view, you don't need to worry..

Blutengel - Die With You


Lyrics:

You do everything for me
Protect me from the shadows

You hold me when I'm falling
Chase all the bad dreams away

You hear me when I'm calling you
Wash away my tears

My blood is poisoned, my soul is aching
I'II die for you once more

But once you hurt me and I can't forget the pain
The razorblades inside my soul
Inside my soul

I tried to forget you
I tried to love you
But I hurt you all the time
I cant't forget you
I'm afraid to touch you
And I always see you cry

I tried to forget you
I tried to love you
But I hurt you all the time
I cant't forget you
I'm afraid to touch you
And I always see you cry

You do everything for me
Protect me from the shadows

You hold me when I'm falling
Chase all the bad dreams away

You hear me when I'm calling you
Wash away my tears

My blood is poisoned, my soul is aching
I'll die for you once more

But once you hurt me and I can't forget the pain
The razorblades inside my soul
Inside my soul

I tried to forget you
I tried to love you
But I hurt you all the time
I cant't forget you
I’m afraid to touch you
And I always see you cry

Let me die, let me die, let me die with you

And I wish I could die with you again
And I wish I could die in your arms again
I want to die with you...

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Today started out quite well, I just hope it will end well to....
Over & out, //Jezz

Frozen

Frozen
Her feet touched the street
as a light feathers fall.
She walked like a queen
towards my frozen soul.

With a warm gentle gesture
her hand touched my heart.
A cold breeze of whinter
was released at last.

I was this black angel
with nowhere to hide.
All these broken demons
that haunt me at night.

Ther was a pale gesture
just out of sight.
I begged her to stop
but she faded out.

Her ways snared my mind
and I was intrigued.
It's like an old wish
that finally came true.

I beg of the stars
that it's long last.
Cause I'm so far frozen
its time to save me at last.

-Jezz 2009-02-19

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ASP & Chamber - Ride On




That speaks for itself. Haha, if you can read my riddle, relax it's not that bad promise. Haha.. *Hugs*
Nuff siad.. Over & out for this time.. //Jezz

Circle Of Dust

I lost my wings, like a fallen angel.
My pale face down in the mud.
Shed my tears, in graves of wisdom.
Hear her words still eco within my mind.

Salty drops makes lines in my face.
Paints up a pattern of scars I feel within.
Shades of night, flows uppon me.
Drags me down in the path of night.

She's my heaven.
She's my hell.
I'd do anything for her.

In this darkness.
In this cage.
She's the only one for me.

Run your hand against my cheek.
Give me a smile and tell me not to weep.
Share my world beneeth our feet.
I'm forever that you please.

She's my heaven.
She's my hell.
I'd do anything for her.

In this darkness.
In this dispair.
She's the only one for me.

As the night flees the light.
As there's no trouble in sight.
Look into my clear blue eyes.
They belong to you as it might.


-Jezz 2008-02-17

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This is just another thought. Another blur.
Is there rely a mening for me in this world?
Still I lure in darkness. Afraid to come out.
Well, perhaps not afraid.. I just don't wanna be here anymore
So sick & tired of it all.
I want to.. Correction.. I NEED to relocate, this is redicilous.
Or rather sad. That I didn't realise this sooner.. Why stay at a place where ya can't feel truly at home?
I need to get over the obstacles, get over the walls. Swim across the great sea, and only then can I be set free.. Is there anyone out there that will join me?
Hah, not that many realise what I'm going through, well its understandable since I'm on purpose being a mystery.
This is over & out for now.