Hm, things haven't quite turned out as planned.. . Yet that is. More time will hopefully tell. As for now, I can only wait and hope that some major changes can be made before all hope has left me. Hope.. They say that hope is the left thing that leaves a human.. I Can only agree as for now. Don't be sad for me, and don't even for a second believe that I have, or even will, give up. I'm far to stubborn for quitting. "Never give up, never surrender!" - Galaxy QuestThing's are still the same, that's why I don't enter a post here every day, seems like I just type the same things over and over again. I would be happy to have something new, something positive to tell just for once... Yet there's only pain & suffering that are scratched down in this miserable blog. Most people who just by accident end up here and read this will just think that I am "another EMO".. Well, perhaps you're right, or perhaps you're miserably wrong? If I am EMO - I would be the grand mother of it. I've been around since long before that term ever was founded.. I've carried this pain longer then you can imagine, and probably longer then you've lived. An eternal searing pain. Yes indeed... I do not cut myself, since I discovered that physical pain don't end any psychic - it only numbs it. Better to try to deal with it.
Went to a psychiatrist just some time ago... They wanted to put me on anti depressive medication.. Perhaps I am depressive, but if I am, I've been depressive for way to long, don't know if its that bad.. I don't want any medication.. They just want the "easy fix", you CANT fix me just with some pills, hope you get that! This is way much deeper, that I do know for myself. Dont need anyone to tell me that. I Can tell them what's wrong.. The question is: Will they listen?
The Dreamside - Forsaken
Lyrics:
Am I forsaken?
Am I forsaken?
Let there be lights
heaven's too delight
Let there be sights
For all is lost now
Light from darkness
Back it's bright
here we stand now
Hold me tight
I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?
I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)
What death may bring
My soul is drowning
Are we trespassing?
Or here to dwell in this house of pain?
Going and Staying
Light from darkness
Back it's bright
Here we stand now
Hold me tight
I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?
I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)
Am I forsaken?
Hoooo
Am I forsaken?
I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?
I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)
Oh ho
Oh ho
Am I forsaken?
Am I forsaken?
