Butterfly

Butterfly

Bad things never cease,
to torment me as it please.
Destroys my soul,
makes me a ghoul.

To ravish in the night,
always alone to fright.
Damned to wander alone,
never to find a home.

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A face full of scars.
A heart behind bars.
Eyes full of tears.
Whomever I love, I scare.
Away from me.
My dear flee.
Away from me.
Away from me.
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Big demon eyes,
don't want to tell you lies.
Shields itself from your sight,
your beauty is like bright light.

Clawed demon paw,
reach for your love.
Searching in the darkness,
who will like someone that's heartless?

--
A face full of scars.
A heart behind bars.
Eyes full of tears.
Whomever I love, I scare.
Away from me.
My dear flee.
Away from me.
Away from me.
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She's a ghost in the night,
always disappears from sight.
A voice in your head,
when you're alone in your bed.

Her smell thrills your senses,
with eyes that leave you breathless.
Want to touch her,
make her mine.
Oh butterfly of my mind.

//Jezz 20080415

Over & out //Jezz

Rose Petals

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| Rose Petals |
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Beneath the rose petals,
are some things who needs to be settled.

Stroke the branch of thorns,
while pain blow it horns.


Below the poisoned trees,
we sat down on our knees.

Addicted devotion.
Like leafs in autumn.


With summer sky above,
I said what my heart told.

I rely wanted to behold.
The love who's sold.

Love's like a blade scratching flesh.
The pain feels like a bless.

Yet I long for her love to hold my soul.
Let her steal my heart.

Beneath the rose petals,
are things who need to be settled......

//Jezz 2001.01.12 & ©Copyright.

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Therion - Birth of Venus Illegitima


Is there something else? Nuff said, over & out //Jezz

Is this what awaits?

Is this the only thing I can look forward to? The Grim Reaper, no I don't fear him, yet I don't want to meet him yet. Still so much incomplete, so much that I want to experience. A Life less lived, is A life wasted.
Replace that figure in the mist. With what you desire, what you want in life. There's no return, there's no way back now. Look forward, move forward. "Never give up, never surrender" - Galaxy Quest
I may be a tough person, where many would have given up, I still move on. Why you might ask?
Don't rely got a good answer to that. But somewhere within, I know that this life will bring me something. All I have to do, is be patient, and move move on after each time I get pinned down.
The 5 best things of my life so far:

• Listening to music & that i got to watch Moonspell Live
• My ex GF (even tho it ended in disaster).
• My true few remaining friends.
• The day I got my driverslicense.
• Fishing with my dad.

The 5 worst things of my life at the moment:

• The fact that I'm living alone.
• My car needs to be repaired.
• Never seem to get enough money for all expences.
  
• The disaster mentioned above.
• Feels like I'm trapped in this corner.

They say that when you die, you get to heaven.... But what if you're all ready dead, and this is hell?
Well, think about it - theres temptation everywhere, everybody's more good looking then you, have better hair, skin or cimilar. We're surrounded by hell.
Don't know what to believe, since it cant get any worse then this.

But, when your life's on the bottom, you can always consult this guy:


Over & out //Jezz

This world

This is so annoying. This life is one disappointment after another. Seems like I'm not allowed to be happy. Not any longer then some hours at a time. Only to be struck down again. Over and over again. It's so tiering, don't want to be part of this anymore. Only want to be happy, share my life with someone that want to share their with mine. Just feels so hopeless, this constant hunt for something that feels so far away. Can I believe in destiny? Älvöga I need a prediction please! Can't stand to spend all this time in search for something that I can't be sure if it will ever happen.. :-P
Seriously tho, my life remains the same. Work work work, eat sleep, work work work.. Hope there will be some positive changes during this week, but hoping will just make me more disappointed when nothing happens and it just begins all over again the next week..
Longing for the weekends, just to sit around doing nothing that matters. All by myself.