Torments

Tormented wild soul.
Nothing's there yet to behold.
Every thing is there to make you fold.
Bow down and do as your told.

Never again, never this game.
I Refuse to be tame.
I'm not bad, I'm not insane.
Just want to be a part of this plane.

Invitation to a broken soul.
We where made to be as one.
Never to be apart.
Never to be left in the dark.

Moonlight fading.
Making the shadows mend.
Walking with the dead.
Just one last time.
Before it starts all over again.

Shallow minds in shallow costumes.
Stare empty with glowing rage.
They support the anger.
They support the hate.

Don't be shallow.
Don't be late.
This state of mind,
filled with disbelief.

//Jezz 20080728

Summer Spirit

Spirit of a fallen past
Free from sorrow, free from cares.
A midnight tale of broken dreams.
Nothing changes, or so it seems.
Hidden tears, hidden screams.

In chilly shadow woods.
She hid her self from the gods.
Only to dance in secret with empty rooms.
Shivering cold, like tombs.

Until ritual of release, she'll bow down on her knees.
Thank the spirit within, get rid of the vermin.
So enlightened with the summer sky above.
Release the black shadows, send then back home.

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Moonspell - Magdalene


Lyrics:
Have you ever loved a woman
who should be that little intruder
in the one that you should be

Share the snake with us,
swallow the snake (for) us...

Have you ever loved a woman
who instead of give or take
would seduce you with a trade

Share the snake with us,
swallow the snake (for) us...

You have learnt heaven through impure lips
so different from what you have been told
so different from what you have seen

and now that you learnt you will have to release
the tender arms of a woman
which would have strangled you to let you live
you will have to elect (choose) the fainting arms of this cross
which are just killing you to let you live...

Share the snake with us,
follow the snake with us...

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Over & out // Jezz

This will blow your mind

Yes it is, but even if you think you finally found "the one and only"... Never be sure, since:

Life's just one new obstacle after another.. Sometimes you fall over, sometimes you run through, and in some rare occasions ya manage to jump over.. But when you have fallen several times in a row, life seems hard.
However, I like to qote from the movie "Galaxy Quest", it fits in so well at this state in life, when it all seems so bad, you don't think there's ever a solution - "Never give up! Never Surrender!".


The Birthday Massacre - Kill The Lights (Live)



Over & out, //Jezz

In Addition

To make up for "lost" posts.. Here's a double post...
Just had to show for you ppl, one of my "new" favourite bands. Like their style.. Like... like... like..... *Hugs* *Cries* *Smiles*


The Birthday Massacre - Blue


The Birthday Massacre - Lovers End (Live)

Send me a tought

Todays Themesong: Fiction8 - Let Go.
(Press their name to go to their myspace page, let that song play in background while reading.)
It's time to open the zipper, see clear.
It's time to stop crying, seize the lying.
This world, this I will tell.
Still ends up as my hell.

Wherever I fell and land.
Every thing just ran out in the sand.
Lost grip on life, away it ran.

Empty faces, empty rooms.
Empty souls that cry for the moon.
Slithering feeling destroying my spine.
Still wish that she still where mine.
Longing there was more to this.
Just one more last kiss.

Shadow captured my heart.
Made it oh, so dark.
Corrupt my values.
Made me fall into sin.
There was no way I could win.

The question I ask myself now;
Is there anything worth saving from it all?
Will I ever be able to stand tall?

Am I to lost to be saved from this?
Am I to lost to be saved from this?
Someday you will come home.
Rescue me from this tomb.
Before i succumb.

//Jezz 2008-07-18

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This might be something from a bad dream. I struggle to sleep, but I know that when I wake up, everything is still as usual. Everything is still sucks.
Yes I hide, still have to, don't ask me why, as long as you're not in the same shoes as me, you are in no state to question this, you can't understand anyway. This life is a must for now, don't know for how long. I Just want this time to go fast so I finally can find 'you' and get my life in motion again. Somehow that just feels impossible right now, but deep within I know things will be solved sometime in the future.. Tho I hate the wait, cant stand being alone, the shadows consumes, devours me hole, just sit in my "cave" feeling like "Gollum".. Still haven't found out what my precious is tho, perhaps my computer? Haha :-)
Still there's one option, one choice.. No it's not suicide - I would never do such a thing. Can't give those assholes that satisfaction, if they once called me an angel, well now my hoofs have grown, my horns have shown themselves and can someone pain my face red to complete the illusion? Anyway, it's what people think of me now. At least the one's who don't know the real story.
No back to the real issue, I got a choice, and it's to neglect a part of me, but that wont solve anything, it wont allow me to be me. So when I think of it, it's rely not an option since it can lead me further into the abyss.

They say, "Don't fear the reaper"...

I Don't. However... Don't want to waste my time being alone. Wasted to much already... :-(

Over & out //Jezz

For a friend

To a friend.
Bulimia or not, you look good the way you are.
I will always be your friend, even when you only want me to bugger-off
I Wish you could be happy.
If you only knew how great you are, you wouldn't have lost your self within it all.
As long as you're alive, you will have a fan ether you want it or not. I can't hate you as you thought.
Think about you atlest once every day, wonder if I'll hear from you today?
I could pick up the phone and check if you where home.
But I'm only afraid that I would scare you away from me.
All I want is to see you smile.
With those beautiful eyes.
I know its true.. Even if you don't see it through.
How bad you ever feel about yourself, I will always see you as you truly are. The beautiful creature I could so easily love.
But I don't want to hurt you since you'r Bulimia has tared you down.
I just wish you'd smile.
Walk with me some murky night.
And give me a hug, before you leave me and say "Good night".

//Jezz 2008-07-17

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Tears dropped when alone, have they rely made any difference?
Trying to defeat shadows when alone, is there rely a point?
Fighting to fit into ths world, is it worth it if you try to do it all by yourself?
Could I be more alone? No, not at this time.. Only question I can answer tho.

Over & Out //Jezz