Butterfly

Butterfly

Bad things never cease,
to torment me as it please.
Destroys my soul,
makes me a ghoul.

To ravish in the night,
always alone to fright.
Damned to wander alone,
never to find a home.

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A face full of scars.
A heart behind bars.
Eyes full of tears.
Whomever I love, I scare.
Away from me.
My dear flee.
Away from me.
Away from me.
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Big demon eyes,
don't want to tell you lies.
Shields itself from your sight,
your beauty is like bright light.

Clawed demon paw,
reach for your love.
Searching in the darkness,
who will like someone that's heartless?

--
A face full of scars.
A heart behind bars.
Eyes full of tears.
Whomever I love, I scare.
Away from me.
My dear flee.
Away from me.
Away from me.
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She's a ghost in the night,
always disappears from sight.
A voice in your head,
when you're alone in your bed.

Her smell thrills your senses,
with eyes that leave you breathless.
Want to touch her,
make her mine.
Oh butterfly of my mind.

//Jezz 20080415

Over & out //Jezz

Rose Petals

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| Rose Petals |
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Beneath the rose petals,
are some things who needs to be settled.

Stroke the branch of thorns,
while pain blow it horns.


Below the poisoned trees,
we sat down on our knees.

Addicted devotion.
Like leafs in autumn.


With summer sky above,
I said what my heart told.

I rely wanted to behold.
The love who's sold.

Love's like a blade scratching flesh.
The pain feels like a bless.

Yet I long for her love to hold my soul.
Let her steal my heart.

Beneath the rose petals,
are things who need to be settled......

//Jezz 2001.01.12 & ©Copyright.

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Therion - Birth of Venus Illegitima


Is there something else? Nuff said, over & out //Jezz

Is this what awaits?

Is this the only thing I can look forward to? The Grim Reaper, no I don't fear him, yet I don't want to meet him yet. Still so much incomplete, so much that I want to experience. A Life less lived, is A life wasted.
Replace that figure in the mist. With what you desire, what you want in life. There's no return, there's no way back now. Look forward, move forward. "Never give up, never surrender" - Galaxy Quest
I may be a tough person, where many would have given up, I still move on. Why you might ask?
Don't rely got a good answer to that. But somewhere within, I know that this life will bring me something. All I have to do, is be patient, and move move on after each time I get pinned down.
The 5 best things of my life so far:

• Listening to music & that i got to watch Moonspell Live
• My ex GF (even tho it ended in disaster).
• My true few remaining friends.
• The day I got my driverslicense.
• Fishing with my dad.

The 5 worst things of my life at the moment:

• The fact that I'm living alone.
• My car needs to be repaired.
• Never seem to get enough money for all expences.
  
• The disaster mentioned above.
• Feels like I'm trapped in this corner.

They say that when you die, you get to heaven.... But what if you're all ready dead, and this is hell?
Well, think about it - theres temptation everywhere, everybody's more good looking then you, have better hair, skin or cimilar. We're surrounded by hell.
Don't know what to believe, since it cant get any worse then this.

But, when your life's on the bottom, you can always consult this guy:


Over & out //Jezz

This world

This is so annoying. This life is one disappointment after another. Seems like I'm not allowed to be happy. Not any longer then some hours at a time. Only to be struck down again. Over and over again. It's so tiering, don't want to be part of this anymore. Only want to be happy, share my life with someone that want to share their with mine. Just feels so hopeless, this constant hunt for something that feels so far away. Can I believe in destiny? Älvöga I need a prediction please! Can't stand to spend all this time in search for something that I can't be sure if it will ever happen.. :-P
Seriously tho, my life remains the same. Work work work, eat sleep, work work work.. Hope there will be some positive changes during this week, but hoping will just make me more disappointed when nothing happens and it just begins all over again the next week..
Longing for the weekends, just to sit around doing nothing that matters. All by myself.

Make Me Sleep

Make Me Sleep

There's no other way to say this.
But you sank your teeth in me,
you stole my soul.
Bled me dry,
made me cry.
All I ever wanted,
was to see you happy.
I't seemed so at first.

With tears like an angel,
both pretty & sad.
She was the beautiful one.
But with her hungry eyes she told me lies.
Now make me sleep.

I Offered you my hand.
Only to loose everything I had.
Just wanted to hold you,
untill time stops again.
But now I'm lost out here,
forever this time.

Since I lost my soul,
I cannot feel love again.

That you ever could make me sleep.
That you ever could make me weep
With tears like an angel.
Both pretty & sad.
She was the beautiful one.
But with her hungry eyes she told me lies.
Now make me sleep.
Make me sleep.
Make me sleep.
Sleep.


//Jezz 20080331

(Img from Julia Jeffrey (couldn't find a way to contact you to ask for your permission to publish, but I hope it's ok)).

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I Don't know where to go anymore, feels like I'm walking blind down a small lonely road. That's why I haven't updated the blog in quite some while. Sorry people, right now I just don't got enough energy, I feel completely drained of life. All I want is to brake this spiral. As for now, it just feels like I've struck rock bottom.
Like a desert, all dry and empty. No life in sight. Awaiting rain, so life can grow again.

Ukulele Orchestra of GB - The Good the Bad the Ugly



That will be all for now //Jezz

The Trolls

The Trolls
Our life's wont end.
We move in the dark.
Inside your world.
From the stories you heard.

Feel us in mind.
We scratch inside.
Shed us no tears.
No one cares.

-
We exist to protect.
The world you neglect.
Sit close to me.
They might set us free.
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We're the forgotten.
Hide in the night.
We'll continue to fight.
To scratch & bite

Screams and fear.
Were always near.
Come and care.
If you dare.

-
We exist to protect.
The world you neglect.
Sit close to me,
they might set us free.
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You lie in your bed.
With trolls in your head.
You're allready dead.
Nothing more siad.

They feed on your pain.
Evil to gain.
Mess with your brain.
You're left in the rain.


-Jezz 2008.03.19

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Will have this song recorded with some help, if you're lucky I'll post a link to it here.
This will be all for now. //Jezz

Sawdust

"Look at you over There, Ripping the Sawdust from my Teddybear"
- Alice Cooper

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Sawdust
In this sleepless night.
All I wish is to hold you thight.
Cuddle close, I woun't bite.
Say you will, atlest say you might.
Be with me, in this forsaken night.

Heavy thoughts could my mind.
Hope it all will heal with time.
I wish you will be that kind.
That in your hart, you will find.
To forgive my horrible crime.

You found me in your dreams.
But you didn't love me as deep it seems.
Now I face an eternal fight.
With no hope left in sight.
All of these sleepless nights.

I'm off to my eternal flight.

My love.
Sawdust.
My love.

-Jezz 2008-03-17

So tired

So tired of this all.
One minute it's all there,
the next there's nothing more.
Always a struggle.
To keep my chin over the water.
Yet something keeps pulling me down.
An endless fight.
An endless war.
Yet life seems to be to far.

I Have no energy this week, sleep sleep, work work, sleep sleep, work work.. It never ends. Can't get out of bed in time so that I can update my blog, nor to do any household things that badly needs to be done, cleaning, washing and so on. It's am ess here. And I don't like it..
Still wonder where all my energy went? Felt at the end of last week like I was starting to gain some, but now it's all lost again. It's a mystery.
Well, no time to write more, have to leave for work..

Over & out // Jezz

Mesmerize

I'm lost without your love sorrounding my soul.
I'm lost without your presence here with me.
I'm lost without your smile towards me.
I'm lost without your eyes looking my way.
I'm lost without your hair through my hands.
I'm lost without your skin next to mine
Ether way I try or do, I'm still lost without you.

-Jezz 20080311

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I'm so tired of this feeling inside. Tired of it all. Nothing will ever be the same, I know that. But that it would bee my fault wasn't planned or my intention. Somehow I always screw things up for myself. Why, oh why? Things just keep on repeating. Over and over again. With the horrible pain fallowing in my path. This empty soul, needs to be full.. I'm doubting that it will ever be filled, not with my luck...
With my luck, I'd just have to settle for a small cottage deep inside the woods. Alone, betrayed & depressed.
Can't lie anymore. Cant deny it ether.. I need someone, just dont know where to find her, whoever she is.

Over & out, //Jezz

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Blutengel - A Little Love


Lyrics:

Feeling like a little child.
Crying out for his mother.
I'm sitting here alone,
And i miss you so much.
The funny thing is,
I don't know who you are.
This feeling inside,
Will slowly kill me,
Someday..
I don't know when,
This feeling will go away.
I wash away my tears,
'Cause I don't want nobody to see me cry.
I can't help myself,
As long as I don't know who you are.
This empty space inside my soul,
Is the place for you.
But I realise in every night,
It will be empty forever.

I just want to feel a little love someday..

Wishing

Plummeting downards.
No where in sight.
Lost the will to fight.
The night prevailed,
covered my life in shadow.

Wish there could be,
any love in this life.
Yet sorrow holds my heart,
filling it with despise.

Flashes of hope.
Neglect my thoughts.
Crimson colored.
Always in my heart,
she was my only thought.

Wish there could be,
any love in this life.
Yet sorrow holds my heart,
filling it with despise.

Flashes of searing pain.
Needles flowing through veins.
A beating heart
Pulsating in the dark.
More machine,
then anything.

I Miss you my love,
whoever you are.
Just wish I knew,
who could love me?
There are indeed,
way to few.

-Jezz 20080310

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The Crüxshadows - Dragonfly


Lyrics:

"Don't ask me to surrender"
Her voice fell tired and spent
"My hopes and dreams, a silent heart
I carry here within"

her outstretched wings, left tattered
A sail aged with rust
"a breath in time, that's yours and mine...
it belongs to only us."

And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
silhouettes recede into a mother's tearful eyes
a host of angels clamor to her side
a light dissolves to kiss the wind,
release the dragonfly.

See the rose within the field of white
She's searching for the grail
but the rain descends to snatch the light
from distant dying suns
a faint resounding in the night
calls angels wings to beat
singing silent lip-sewn songs
but the distance is too deep...

And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
silhouettes receded into a mother's tearful eyes
a host of angels clamor to her side
a night dissolved to kiss the wind
release the dragonfly

And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
as precious moments will slip away in time
angels fall from grace, and sometimes heroes die
but tonight, my love, ascend the gates,
release the dragonfly

sometimes angels fall, but love will never die
"tonight my soul is something more" -
calls the dragonfly."

Speechless & Blind

Speechless and blind, thoughts screaming in my mind.

Remember never to do this one more time.
Always hurts more when it's a crime.

Will not fall into this trap again, need to keep sane.
She was a demon who kept me trapped with pain.
Nothing will ever be the same again.

Speechless and blind, thoughts screaming in my mind.

All I wish is that i could make it all rewind.
Try it all over just one more try.

Just want someone the help me with my life.
Perhaps even to be my wife?
Still no one have heard my cries.

-Jezz 2008.03.07

In this case, the beast killed the beauty. Unfortunately.. Time will tell if the beast only killed another beast to create a beauty. The story will go on.

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LAB - Beat The Boys

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Over & Out // Jezz

Strange

This could be me... If I was pretty that is.. But still close.. Like the blue hair color. Brings out the eyes more. If it was possible.
I Feel.... Something... Don't know what it is yet.. Will try to find out.. Is there someone out there that sends me energy that I do not know off? I'm not used to this, so be careful. - Or in another case, it might just be my searing back pain that's worse then usual projecting pain through my weakened soul.

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Sweet nothing.
Then I See her face,
only to be gone without a trace.
Empty memories,
empty faces.
Everywhere I go there's fences.

Angry men pointing, laughing.
Telling me to go places.
Depressed and tired,
I only stare at their stupid faces.

She crawled inside my brain,
there you will remain.
Untill I'm finally sane.
Free of all this pain.

-Jezz 2008.03.06


Over & out for mow, sleep well.. I know I wount.. //Jezz

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Pain Ever Come

I Stare at your grace, your beloved appearance,
as we catch eye contact just for a second.
I Fill with devoted emotions.
I Want to know what it feels like being your's.
To be held in your arms, held in your heart.
Various feelings, like my inside wants to explode.
Don't want to loose what it might have become.

Pain ever come.
Can not heal, cannot seek,
devotion, emotion.
Searing pain running through my veins.
Closing in on my heart, pushing, aching.

Sense you, sense you madly.
You're so far, far away. I Barly see your shadowy figure.
I Reach out trying to grab something that's not there.
Broken... through my tears..
Flowing like a waterfall down my cheeks,
forever, never to stop.
How can I get you closer?

- Jezz 080304

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Here's another lyric:

Absurd Minds - Silence (Can Be Faithful)
Remembering the time i was a fool,
I was a victim of a virus.
The past turns to present once a year.
Now i can hear you,
I can see you. you`re so nice.
I feel the poison in my veins.
It makes my blood boil. you`re so fine.
I wanna kiss you, i wanna touch you.

I wanna touch you, my girl. the silence can be fateful.
Where is the key to your feelings, i never knew.
Wild emotions are locked in,
They can`t break out of me.
I`m paralyzed with fear. however,
Silence can be fateful.

You don`t know the question,
So i cannot get the answer.
And you don`t know my wishes,
You don`t know my hopeful dreams.
The past turns to present once a year.
Now i can hear you,
I can see you. you`re so nice. you`re so sweet.
You`re so fine.

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Another Quote the lst "Absurd Minds" lyric posted, 'Septic': "If I was a winner, I wouldn't have failed"
No argues there. True... True...

It's strange, I feel a presence.. A link of some sort, to someone.. Don't know who.. A strange feeling.. Whoever you are.. Come take my heart, before it's lost within myself. Before I loose myself into something bad. Before I loose control if it all. I'm going completely mad when I have to live like this, without all meaning, without a hope.

Over & out //Jezz

Tear You Apart

Don't rely know what to write today.. I'm dead tired, but generally & strangely in good spirit. Or not as "heavy minded" as usual.. I Don't know how to describe it rely.. Today I think I will take some inspiration from my new found friend Jessi, and make a list of some of the women I admire. Not necessarily in order:

Jezz's Top 5 Female Preformers:

1. Sharon Den Adel - Singer of the band Within Temptation.. Wonderful voice & stage performance.

2. Emilie Autumn - Singer & music writer. Brilliant girl!

3. Sara Noxx - Singer & writer, she has a quite unique way to write/sing. Essexx - one of the projects she's part of.

4. Liv Kristine - Former singer of the band "Theatre Of Tragedy", released an solo album and created a 'new' band "Leave's Eyes". Heavenly voice.

5. Jessicka Fodera - Founder of "Jack Off Jill" and "Scarling". No words can describe her.

There are more, but that's another list.. For another day..

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She Wants Revenge - Tear You Apart

Damn That Lie

Suddenly it struck me.. I've been lying to everyone I've ever met, ever knew.. Even my closes friends & family.. It's not a bad lie in some ways, but the hard part is now to tell, without loosing any more friends.. Want to gain more "new" friends.. Not that the one's I've got are bad, it's just that many of them are hard to speak with since they live in the other side of the world, time difference makes communication way to late sometimes wich makes my already messed up life more messed up.. :-(
Not your fault, It's just as mentioned, I don't got any other to speak with.. And I enjoy talking with you, the time difference aren't any of us fault. So don't worry about that please? Here's a pic for you :-P


Before I had many people to talk to all around the world, now there's just a few of them left due to the change from ICQ to MSN (dang Microsoft).. To many are lazy and don't install ICQ when they have reinstalled or bought new computer.. Lost many good internet friends that way, will always be missed - R.I.P.. Some are still there, and I want to keep them, I love those buggers even if I've never met most of them, and just talk by text. It's still almost the only communication that I have with other humans these days.. Yes my life is miserable at the moment. But you guys and girls makes it all worthwhile, never forget that. *hugs*

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This is usually where I post a song, but this time it can't be found on youtube, or any other site I've searched.. Therefore I will just give you the lyrics, listening to the song will be left to you, if you can find it.

Absurd Minds - Septic
Like a flower in the desert
The only beauty within miles
She attracts all men's attention
A perfect sweety spending smiles

And I have lost myself in her
What's left of me ain't worth to mention
All my life is missin' in action
I loved myself through her affection

There's nothing else to share
I was awake but not aware
Strategic leader of my senses
This mindwar builds the highest fences

She's my eyeball turning blind
She's a care-actress on the love-set
She's the drug that rapes my mind
She is the poison I can't hate

Septic honey on my bread
Septic thoughts spin through my head
Septic baby in my bed
Septic, bad, worse, dead
Vom Gift deiner Lenden übersäht
I only wanted love instead

I see you, I hear you, but I don't feel you nomore
I am willing to behave
Could you like me without fear
I'm prepared to be your slave
Bleibst du für immer bei mir ?

A sudden end to my desire
I simply reflect your light & fire
Still I don't shine if you don't shine
Lies burn my love - ich bin so klein

We're so close in distance
And yet so far in thought
Sin in itself does not make sense
Wo auch immer Liebe droht
She's my eyeball turning blind
She's a care-actress on the love-set
She's the drug that rapes my mind
She is the poison I can't hate

Septic honey on my bread
Septic thoughts spin through my head
Septic baby in my bed
Septic, bad, worse, dead
Vom Gift deiner Lenden übersäht
I only wanted love instead


I see you, I hear you, but I don't feel you nomore

I don't want to be nailed
To anyone's cross
If I was a winner, I wouldn't have failed
If I wasn't lovemad, I could take the loss

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Is there anything else? Well, this is me, saying good night, good fight.. Life's always a struggle.. Over & out. //Jezz

Am I Forsaken?

Hm, things haven't quite turned out as planned.. . Yet that is. More time will hopefully tell. As for now, I can only wait and hope that some major changes can be made before all hope has left me. Hope.. They say that hope is the left thing that leaves a human.. I Can only agree as for now. Don't be sad for me, and don't even for a second believe that I have, or even will, give up. I'm far to stubborn for quitting. "Never give up, never surrender!" - Galaxy Quest

Thing's are still the same, that's why I don't enter a post here every day, seems like I just type the same things over and over again. I would be happy to have something new, something positive to tell just for once... Yet there's only pain & suffering that are scratched down in this miserable blog. Most people who just by accident end up here and read this will just think that I am "another EMO".. Well, perhaps you're right, or perhaps you're miserably wrong? If I am EMO - I would be the grand mother of it. I've been around since long before that term ever was founded.. I've carried this pain longer then you can imagine, and probably longer then you've lived. An eternal searing pain. Yes indeed... I do not cut myself, since I discovered that physical pain don't end any psychic - it only numbs it. Better to try to deal with it.

Went to a psychiatrist just some time ago... They wanted to put me on anti depressive medication.. Perhaps I am depressive, but if I am, I've been depressive for way to long, don't know if its that bad.. I don't want any medication.. They just want the "easy fix", you CANT fix me just with some pills, hope you get that! This is way much deeper, that I do know for myself. Dont need anyone to tell me that. I Can tell them what's wrong.. The question is: Will they listen?

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The Dreamside - Forsaken



Lyrics:
Am I forsaken?
Am I forsaken?

Let there be lights
heaven's too delight
Let there be sights
For all is lost now

Light from darkness
Back it's bright
here we stand now
Hold me tight

I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?

I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)

What death may bring
My soul is drowning
Are we trespassing?
Or here to dwell in this house of pain?
Going and Staying

Light from darkness
Back it's bright
Here we stand now
Hold me tight

I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?

I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)

Am I forsaken?
Hoooo
Am I forsaken?

I saw the sign
For she has foretold
and she has forseen
Am I forsaken?

I don't regret it
and I don't deny
For I saw dark
Am I forsaken?
(forsaken)

Oh ho
Oh ho
Am I forsaken?

Am I forsaken?

Whoever you are

Somewhere out there ou are, looking, perhaps even waiting for me to find you.. Or perhaps you're searching?
Ether way, all that can be done, is for me to wait, search, and beg to witch ever power that rules this world, that the day we finally meet will come soon.
It's hard to live in my own personal hell, my own private prison. Need someone to share my life with real soon.. I'm already slowly dying emotionally, the little monster inside that hurts so much, slowly devours it, leaves me numb.. I just want to reach inside, grab that little monster and tare him out of his prison, make my soul free.. But each time I try, he's already hiding away from my reach. Chewing on what remains of my soul.

Drink up what's left of my soul, it's already lost anyway.

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SCHWEIN - You're My Disease

Lyrics (Original Japanese):
Kanjiteru no wa kurutteru ecstasy
Kura yami temaku omae no me ni
Roeku ai nikku wo motome kokoro ni tsumetate zutazuta ni

Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu
Barairo ga nagareru omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
You're my disease

Itami hashiru kizuguchi wa nai
Omae wa gokushou no emi ukabe
Soko nashi no ai oboeteiku nani mo kanjinai sekai made

Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu
Barairo ga nagareru omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu
Barairo ga nagareru omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu

Kanjiteru no wa kurutteru ecstasy
Kura yami temaku omae no me ni
Roeku ai nikku wo motome kokoro ni tsumetate zutazuta ni

Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu
Barairo ga nagareru omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu
Barairo ga nagareru omae wa midare
Just like you do as you please
Ore wo kitasu

Lyrics (Translation English):
The thing that I feel is crazy ecstasy
Darkness to your eyes tempting me
The crawling love with seeking dirty flesh
nail is scratching the heart violently

Just like you do as you please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
Disgrace me
Flowing rose color and you are going mad
Just like you do as please
You're my disease
Just like you do as you please
you are going mad
Just like you do as you please
Disgrace me
Flowing rose color and you are going mad
Just like you do as you please
Disgrace me

I don't have wound which hurts and runs
You are smiling supremely
The endless love
I'm drunk, faint, drown and falling into the world where I feel so numb

Sundown

Sundown - Slither


Lyrics:
your poison is like honey for my soul
that sweet sedative venom makes me whole
pale horizons coming down
nothing but a stranger in this...

lights keep shifting
floating patterns across my face
orbs still dripping
a salty cure for bitter days
slither slowly
pass the sadness across the room
slither gently
shaping god within the gloom

time keeps passing
like ashes riding on the storm
faith keeps failing
under siege of the locust swarm
lead is melting
slithers down my silver skin
hope is dying
it opens up what hides within

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Could this be me?

Yes in deed, "your poison is like honey for my soul".. I Can't be without whoever you are. Wherever you are.
"That sweet sedative venom makes me whole".. Yes, and Its missing form my life, makes me incomplete, non functional. I'm generally a kind soul, but with the lack of this somehow I get very unpleasant.... I'm Sorry, I can't help myself.... With pain comes rage unfortunatly... :-(

Someone at work threatened to punch me (yet it was playful tho, not agressive), but stopped the fist in front of my face and said; "That would have broken your nose"
Frankly, I couldn't care less if it had happened, physical pain is a lot more easy to deal with... This pain inside tares me down from within, no wounds no scars, only an eternal pain gnawing on my inner feelings in a way that cannot be treated by medication, doctors or band aids... Only one solution, just to bad that solution has to take time, every second, minute, hour, day, week, month - hurts badly, twisting out my energy through a searing pain.
The eternal wait, for the one to whom I belong.......


Over & out// Jezz

Never leave

Nuff said


Lyrics:
I want to hold you to the sun
I want to be your faithful one
I want to show you all the beauty
You don't even know you hold
I'm hurting you for your own good
I'd die for you - you know I would
I'd give up all my wealth
To buy you back the soul you never sold
I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith your heart
You'll never be deceived

Liar Liar Liar Liar

I want to heal you pretty sweet
I'll throw rose petals at your feet
I'll spend eternity
Comparing all my poetry to yours
I want to see love through your eyes
you'll never have to compromise
I'd give up all my fame
To fight your demons and your bloody wars

Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Show me your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want to see your pain
Are you suffering?
Show me your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want it
I want it


I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith your heart
You'll never be deceived
I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith your heart
You'll never be deceived

Liar Liar Liar Liar

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave.

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Over & Out // Jezz

What will stand?

There's a thin line between hate & love.
The earth move beneath my feet, my world stopped turning years ago.
Leafs fall to the frozen ground all dead and brittle.
They say; Things has to get worse, before they can get better.
How much worse does it has to get?
Once you're higher then air, you're struck down, thrown to the ground.
Taking forever to get back up there.To get that 60 second feeling of freedom.

When this love found me, I thought it would never fall apart.
That her feelings where mine. That we would be togeather forever.
But the world closed it's eyes towards our love.
Left me in darkness, witout a chance to make our love stick.
All I could do was to silently stand and watch.
While the earth beneath me fell away, leaving an deep dark cave.
Into it I fell. Still falling, still calling.

If I'm ever found again, we'll see. Done to much work to hide. Done to much work to flee. To much work onto building something that never could be. Now it's time to release, and set me free.

---

Emilie Autumn - Shalott

(Yes, I actually cried the first couple of times I heard this song, almost too beautiful.. //Jezz )

Shalott lyrics

She's locked up with a spinning wheel
She can't recall what it was like to feel
She says, "This room's gonna be my grave
And there's no one who can save me,"
She sits down to her colored thread
She knows lovers waking up in their beds
She says, "How long can I live this way
Is there no one I can pay to let me go
'Cause I'm half sick of shadows
I wanna see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the sun goes down
So why can't I

Chorus:
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold..."

She looks up to the mirrored glass
She sees a horse and rider pass
She says, "This man's gonna be my death
'Cause he's all I ever wanted in my life
And I know he doesn't know my name
And that all the girls are all the same to him
But still I've got to get out of this place
'Cause I don't think I can face another night
Where I'm half sick of shadows
And I can't see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the tide comes in
So why can't I

Chorus

But there's willow trees
And little breezes, waves, and walls, and flowers
And there's moonlight every single night
As I'm locked in these towers
So I'll meet my death
But with my last breath I'll sing to him I love
And he'll see my face in another place,"
And with that the glass above

Her cracked into a million bits
And she cried out, "So the story fits
But then I could have guessed it all along
'Cause now some drama queen is gonna write a song for me,"
She went down to her little boat
And she broke the chains and began to float away
And as the blood froze in her veins she said,
"Well then that explains a thing or two
'Cause I know I'm the cursed one
I know I'm meant to die
Everyone else can watch as their dreams untie
So why can't I

Chorus

Chorus


That's all, over & out.. // Jezz