Sigh

PLEASE!

Loosing faith is just a test from God my love.
Please I miss you so much.
Not even when I sleep can I get rest.
My thoughts are always with you.
And my feelings.
I can feel them inside, ripping open my chest from the inside.
Please.
Talk to me again.
Please.

Don't ignore true love

True Love:
Love. Love is the greatest gift God ever gave man. Love is not wanting to go anywhere without her. Love is not caring what other people think about the two of you. Love is when you feel depressed and sickly when you're not with her. You feel like your life has no meaning or purpose without her. And that if she wasn't holding your hand you would float away to heaven from where she came. Love is caring for her physically and emotionally. It's telling her everyday, anytime, anywhere, anyhow, for no just reason that you love her. Love is telling her u want to spend the rest of your life with her. Love is wanting to marry her even tho ya'll haven't been dating that long. That you would do anything and everything for her. It's the feeling that you would give up everything just to see her smile or look into her beautiful eyes or hear her soft, soothing voice. Love is pure happiness. Love is the feeling you get when all you have to do is think of her and it brings a smile to your face and a yourning to your heart. Love is not being able to think about nething but her. Love is having the sweetest dreams about her and waking up with a smile on ur face. Love is an overwelming feeling of pure bliss when the 2 of u kiss. Love is wanting to hold her in ur arms till the end of time. Love is wishing ur time with her never ends, that your lips would be locked together forever, that she'd be in ur arms till the end of time, that u could cuddle with her for all of eternity. Love is being hel...

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Im waiting my love, you are the one   //Jezz

First

For the first time ever in my life I prayed to God.
Of what I prayed I will not tell.
All I say is that I rely hope there is one right now. Coz it seems like he/she's the only one who can help.
When all I did was do my hardest to make things work.
The opposite part just got more doubt, more jealousy.
I know my conscience is clean, but she cant believe.

I'm tormented.
I'm torn.
But this woman I completely adore, I completely love with all my heart and soul.
Now my last hope is God. Since no one listens.

Have a good night iubita mea.
Hope you can understand and forgive me some day. Everything could have been so wonderful. Now I'm back in hell where I belong.


//Jezz

I Still wish

I wish I wasn't this clumsy
I wish I could fix this

Can't expect a miracle
Still wish it would happen
To hold her in my arms again
Gazing into her brown beautiful eyes
Touching the soft adorable skin

Now this is all a feeling within
A gaping wound
I still wish I could fix this.

She will always be in my heart
A place covered with satin
Embraced in lace

All I got is myself to blame
When mistrust is born
It makes love torn

I still wish I could fix this.

//Jezz 2011-08-22

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I'll be crying myself to sleep now. The trolls is the enemy. Over & out  //Jezz

Another Night

Another Night.
Another moon.
I hope for the day to come soon.

Just to hear your voice again.
Brings a smile to my face.

A story lost or a story won?
A midnight tale that just began.

//Jezz, 2010. 

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Snowflake

As a snowflake you came
So unique and beautiful
Brings a smile to my face

Like the moon you part the darkness
Bring light to the cold winter nights

You're my star in the sky
Helps me find my way
Into your warm embrace


//Jezz 2010-11-26

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Patchwork

Patchwork

Time to patch up the heart that once was broken
Time to reveal all those words that was unspoken
A path in mind
A heart thats blind

Her soothing mind keeps me clear
Her gentle caress, I'm obsessed

I give her my heart
I give her my life

Forever in my mind
Will this be my kind

//Jezz 2010-11-03

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The art

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Don't

Within or without
Within the shadow of a doubt

Her apperance in my mind
Whenever I close my eyes

Under the lonely bridge
Above the dark waters

A lonely figure
A lonely heart

Whenever you'r not here
An acing burns deep within
When love is thrown in the bin

A lonely shadow dwell in the dark
Enslave your soul
Burns you his mark

We should never be apart

//Jezz

Why?

Miss you.

Another night alone.Within this empty home.

A soothing hug.
A longing mind.

The gentle touch.
That matters much.

Relieve my pain.
Until we meet again.

Want to be forever in your arms.
Protect you from all harms.

Loosing my mind.
Will she be my kind?

I'll miss you until we meet again.
Your acing firend.
Thats lost again.

//Jezz 2010-10-26

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Flaming abyss

"Ich bringe dich dazu mein Freund zu sein, ich schaffe es dass du mich hasst,....aber mich zu lieben,...kannst nur du entscheiden"
//Jezz, written sometime during 1996 




Falling
A fall to a hope
Beneath the hanging rope

A pledging voice
A reaching hand
"Take me a way from this land"

In sorrow and in joy

I'll always be your toy.

It's time this pain will end.
Time to take me to the promised land.


I believe what's men to be
will take away my misery

/Jezz 2010-10-25

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New & Improved?

Perhaps not improved..
However, I MUST WRITE MORE OFTEN... A fact..
I've been very very very very very lazy lately.
Generally coz theres so much going on, like:
Monday:
05:00 Breakfast,
06:00 Work
11:00 Lunch
12:00 More work
15:00 Go home
15:30 Shower
15:45 Prepare dinner for myself
18:00 Guitar practice
21:00 Bedtime
Tuesday:
Repeat monday
Wensday:
Repeat monday

And so on so forth.

Ehum, well it might not look like much, but it don't leave much time left to do things on.

Why is there never enough time?

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Nuclear

Heard it once..
Got hooked on it.
Listened to it all day.. :D
Jesus on Extasy is my saviour (for now)..
//Jezz

Effective?

Poor piglet.
Poor fella never stood a chance.
It's very easy to judge by how a person dresses. I just wish more ppl could be more understanding. Not to let first impression be held against them.

I'm a part of the machine.
The machine thats supposed to work
But only does for the ones who fit within the frame
I refuse to be yet another sheep within the herd
Way to many sheep herded by the machine
Told what to think, what to wear.
Not me.

Should I get punished for this?
I can ensure you that I have, and still am.

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Jack of Jill - Girl Scout

(Common now, sing along..)

If you want it, did you never want for more
The Girl Scout fell from grace
If you want it, did you never want for more
I spit inside her face
If you want it, did you never want for more
The lines that cut right through
If you want it, did you never want for more
The numbness that was you
What I want
and what I need
To sacrifice what I believe
My little Girl Scout
Your mouth is getting sore
Will you love me any less
If I hurt you any more?
If you want it, did you never want for more
Cleansing every sore
If you want it, did you never want for more
Sold from door to door
If you want it, did you never want for more
Finish what you start
If you want it, did you never want for more
De-humanize my heart
What I want
and what I need
To sacrifice what I believe
My little Girl Scout

Your mouth is getting sore
Will you love me any less
If I hurt you any more?
I was never your number one fan
How can I grow a girl away
When you never were a man?
And I was never nice, and I've gone too far
You don't need to be nice when you've been
Kissed by a star
Kissed by a star
Kissed by a star
Hurt by a star
Fucked by a star
Kissed by a star
Kissed by a star
Kissed by a star
Fuck what I want
Fuck what I need
I'll sacrifice what I believe
My little Girl Scout
Your mouth is getting sore
Will you love me any less
If I hurt you any more?

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Plastic Wrap - Trapped?

Plastic Wrap - Trap

Here within
Here without
Lost my way
Lost my sight

Another morning
Another day
Still the same
Still no name

Her eyes
Her smiles
Where to find
Where to rewind

A plastic wrap
A plastic trap
A soulless thing
...
Still lost within

A silent moan
A silent home
Shes living dead
Shes in my head

Cant set her free
Cant let her be
She owns my mind
She owns my kind

A prisoner within
A prisoner locked in
Wants to get out
Wants to get free

A plastic wrap
A plastic trap
A soulless thing
...
Still lost within

A plastic wrap
A plastic trap
A soulless thing
...
Still lost within

//Jezz 2010-07-11

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Sleep my dream, without me you're nothing.
Sleep my life, without my dreams you're not worth it.
//Jezz

Enter

Enter my mind
Search and you will find
Stop and be blind
Forever lost in time

A shimmer of hope
Your eyes through the scope
You woun't be the first to mope
My heart broke the rope

Deeper insight
Hold me tight
You just may
You just might.

//Jezz 2010-06-10

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Wensday

Destined to die.
A flesh eating pile.
Doomed by our lust.
To our politics we trust.

Another life.
Another vain.
Forever left with our pain.
In life's cruel game.

//Jezz 2010-04-28

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Over and out for now //Jezz

Tears of blood

Tears of blood.

I Don't want your tears of blood
I Don't need your sorrow
I already swim within my own river of pain
A steady flow
A never ending hell

I don't want to
Don't want it to be like this

Lost my dream when I was seventeen
Her eyes stole my heart
Swept in like ravens
Black as coal
Devouring my soul

I don't want your tears of blood
I don't need your sorrow
When I'm drowning
Within my own

//Jezz 2010-04-22

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Mortal Love - I Make The Mistake

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“You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.” //Winnie the Pooh

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That's all for now. Over and out // Jezz

Her ghost

I don't know when
I don't know how
I don't know if.
All that can be done, is to keep hope
To keep working towards the goal.
If I ever can reach it.
I refuse to see it as a "if".
Rather as a "when".
I refuse to believe that I will forever be lost.

Wonderful

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Life goes on, not to my liking tho. Everything seems like it don't wanna go my way.. There is ALWAYS something that stands in my way, that fucks things up for me. Wherever I turn, it's a dead end.
I'm so sick & tired of this. When will my life turn around?